I cannot believe the year I experienced. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined such a year. I honestly thought I wouldn’t be getting married till I was like 28 and working and living on my own. I’m so thankful my dreams came true <3
I’ve learned and grown and experienced so much this year. It’s hard to sum things up. To start I began the year with my very best friend since grade 6 Amanda who is now my maid of honour. We celebrated surrounded by young people from her grandfather’s church in a small community centre in Plattsville. I also tried curling for the first time and was huge clutz as I fell several times on the ice. #SOML.
With the dawn of the new year was the dawn of a new relationship with my love Michael on January 23. From there, things progressed until the summer when I knew I didn’t want to spend my life without him. He proposed August 21 in Niagara Falls. Honestly, I’ve never been in a relationship before and it felt like a huge learning curve for me. I’ve learned so much about myself and life. It challenges you when you’re around someone so different from you but who also loves you soo much and wants the best for you. I’ve learned to be a better listener, I’m continually learning to communicate better and what a godly relationship looks like through our pre-marriage counselling. I’m very quiet and reserved and Mike is very to the point and outgoing. He’s taught me a lot and encouraged me to speak up and be brave around people.
I’m really looking forward to this next year together with Mike and all the new experiences we will share.
Another change I experienced this year was switching my program of study. I’m no longer on the path to become a dietician. I switched from pursuing a BSc to a BA in nutrition and families. I’m in the same program minus the science component. Instead, I will be a professional home economist(PHEc) when I graduate. My goals right now are to pursue a job within an agricultural marketing board such as the Pork or Dairy Board of Ontario. In this role, I would educate consumers on how to prepare and properly store various products, test recipes, and write articles. My long-term goals are to contribute to a magazine, work in a test kitchen and blog about food. Ultimately I would like to work from home and be free to take care of my family.
The change in program was much needed as the fall semester has gone better than any of my previous ones. My marks are much higher and I’ve thoroughly enjoyed all of my classes. I’ve been able to take psychology, the psychology of eating, parenting and a few others. I’m looking forward to where God takes me over the next few years career-wise.
“God gives us passions that connect with His heart”.
Recently I was listening to a podcast by Authentic Intimacy called Java with Juli. In the episode, the ladies were discussing pursuing your dream vs pursuing God’s dream. The takeaway I took from it was we have to step out and obey God and allow Him to work through us. We must be willing to step away from what we think we should be doing. Erin Smalley a lady on the panel gave an example of where she had started giving marriage seminars with her husband. For her public speaking was not enjoyable but at her husband’s encouragement she began to get better and even enjoy it. She had gone back to school got a Masters in counselling. Everything seemed to be going very well. Then God granted a desire she had had since she was a child to adopt a little girl. She said it was very difficult and hard to let go of this new passion and she didn’t understand why God was bringing this new season of being a stay at home mom again into her life at this exact time. She shares how God brought the provision of a girl to care for their children allowing her to go back out and speak. She had to lay down her dream in order for God to work His bigger purpose for her life. In conclusion, we should ask God how can we join in the work He is already doing?
Honestly, what is life without God, without pursuing His will and purposes for our life? I’ve had some ups and downs this year. I’ve had times where I felt conflicted and times where I didn’t act like myself. I thought about things and I came the conclusion that I want what God wants for my life. To honour him with my actions not to pursue to the flesh or act out in rebellion or immaturity. I may not always have the most fun or be the most exciting person. At the end of the day, I can rest knowing I obeyed God and put Him first.
Yes, I have dreams and passions and desires and goals for this New Year. Overall I want to ask God what He has in store for me, where can I be used by Him? How can I be a good example to those around me? I want to be more disciplined with my devotional time, I want to pray more intentionally and I want to get involved at Church. I want to be a suitable helper to Michael. I want to do well in school and finish strong.